Before SPM

Bonjour..it's been quite some time since my last update. lots to share but hmn..dont know where to start.. okay, how about.. hmn what i did at school during the week before SPM (my big exam)? i bet most of you out there are thinking that i might be spending time revising a lot, is it? nope :) how could i? haha! i can only concentrate revising at home la. school before SPM is meant to be spent with friends before i don't have the chance to hang out with them anymore (dang it) -.- 19days more, and this whole exam thing will be over. which also means, i might not be able to see my friends anymore. hate to say this, but yea, gotta face the music :( anyway, those who chose not to go to school before SPM, you guys have definitely missed lots of fun.. we sang, we danced, we jumped, then we shouted and we laughed. gosh, I'm missing them already! okay, i think the pictures will speak even better, so yea, check them out :) but i wont upload much here. I'll upload in my facebook acc after spm, so stay tune :)

 this is us graduating :)  first i didn't get why the school is willing to spend so much money for the ceremony, but then. after everything ended, i finally know why :) it was definitely fun and it felt like we already sat for our finals during the concovation. hehe. but when we got back home, the pressure is on, again. :S

miss this moment, just after the convo, we went outside and this is one of the pictures we took :) oh by the way, this is why i see my class as a good example for the 1M'sia concept. hehe. oh and, all the boys were required to wear songkok that day, even for non-Muslims. and luckily, they didn't ask girls to wear tudung, or else I'll surely kept on complaining and yea, definitely sweat even more that day! lol.

Also, after the convo. from the left, Alhafizah, Hastanti, Ria Carl and of course, aku.okay i need to dedicate this little space for this 3persons, who made my life even colorful i must say :) (omg jiwang haha) Ria, a daring girl i get to know since i was in the age of 10, the person i spent most of my time with at school, and people see us as BFF. we talk a lot. when we are together, please beware that we're daring to do almost everything. and when we're in the mood, you'll get annoyed with our laughter which i need to say, is damn loud. hehe. okay enough about Ria. haha. Fizah and Hastan, we've been in the same class for two years already, but i just get to know them well this year (not too late) and good enough to build strong bonds :) Hastan was always there to help, a caring person, no doubt about that. Fizah and Hastan are BFF. so when there's Hastan, there's Fizah. haha. being with Fizah is fun, she jokes a lot, a cool person to be with.

note: i know it is quite annoying to SEE this picture. but it's totally different when you're in our shoes :)
from the left, Michelle, Diana, X, Fizah, Farah, Hastanti, Ria Carl, Elaine.
guess what we did? of course we didn't just took pictures la..we took this picture before a game, i call it, truth or dare "i dare you" LOL! losers penished to go outside the classroom and do a catwalk with their clothes having a balloon inside, with people around looking with curiosity, (losers should know how to deal with that themselves) haha. special thanks to Elaine for sponsoring the balloons :D



from the top, Vahin, X, Wahim, Ria, Shadeesh (i have no idea with his facial expression) LOL
this is one special day we spent taking pictures like this, just for fun. a lot more. but i don't feel like uploading them in facebook yet, so just be patient :) you'll get to see more pictures like this soon. oh and guys, cool to have classmates like you guys ^^ and also, thanks for the confessions in my lil book :) i appreciate that a lot. for my readers, I'll post an entry soon after SPM about the little book i mentioned. ::)



oh this picture! I'm so loving this pic, didn't know all of them could be so crazy at times :) just in case you don't get this picture, we were imitating robots :) looking at this picture reminds me of poco-poco. we dance in our classroom, then we did some crazy silat moves, we jumped, we shouted, we laughed, we hugged. omg. can't seem to get it out of my mind. LOL.
behind: Fizah, Liyanah, Syafinaz, Hastanti, Salmi
Front: Jenilyn, Kirthini, Michelle Tay, Ria Carl, Michelle Lam, Jen Nee, Yvette
1 Malaysia!!! :D

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Done with the pictures :) now, let's talk aout my exam. i remember the night before SPM, i got very nervous. probably because I'm not good in managing stress. off to bed at 11pm wishing that i wont suffer insomnia that night. but dang. i couldn't seem to fall asleep even though i felt very tired that night. the last time i checked the time was 1am, and i decided to get back up and on the lights, to do some revision. i dare not to look at the time before offing the light again after that. luckily i was still able to do well in my exam the next day. but i got forgetful at times. i dint put my signature for my BI report! after BI, when i sat for EST, we were required to write a report too. i reminded myself not to forget this time. i  got 15minutes extra time after completing my report. but crap. i remembered about the signature right after i pass up my papers to the teacher! -.- oh well, what to do. lol

i think that's all for now. it's really late already. oh just before i stop, I'm sitting for my addmaths paper next week :( I suck in addmaths. huhu..ok done
PEACE

5Arif'09 Class Party

Theme: Glam Wanna Be

Venue: Executive Hotel

Date: 11 Oct 2009

Time: 6.30pm to 10.30pm

(sample of the invitation card)
designed by Faiez. NAH! bangga la? haha..

Register before getting in to the room :)

This is it people. The last class party in my secondary school life. Lots of indescribable moment. Cant believe  after SPM, i won't be able to see most of them anymore. All  have our own separate ways to go. but hey, you guys.. i definitely won't forget all you monkeys of the so-called "budak kelas pandai" 5Arif.. well i think only some are really worth the saying, you know who you are. okay back to the class party, it was awesome. we have an interview to all of the teachers who attended the party. about how they felt about our class.



me, interviewing teacher Esther

One of my classmates (Syafinaz) performed the song Love Story by Taylor Swift and the guitarist was AlHafizah.

Syafinaz and Alhafizah :)

Elaine and I was suppose to sing,. but i wasn't sure about what song to sing. plus, having problems with the vcd. and Elaine, didn't have enough time to sing because we spent too much time dancing :) after taking our meals, we had a voting session. and guess what..i did a demonstration for the "most outstanding teacher" award by demonstrating a catwalk!! LOL. wanted to upload the videos, but couldn't. so, just see the pictures la kan :)

Me, demonstrating. don't laugh :)

Teacher Yeap! (former addmaths teacher) fyi, he won the most favorite teacher award :)

 

Teacher Azahar! (present physics teacher) the teacher who takes lots of funny pictures :)

Cikgu Nor Zida! (present addmath teacher) the teacher who mistaken our class as the "kelas diam dan serius" LOL

My beloved math teacher, teacher Esther, the one who's dreaming to get all As in maths from our class! omg see, she's posing with her hp. haha, fyi, she won the "most outstanding teacher" award :)

Cikgu Zainibi! (BM teacher) Holding a flower on her hand given by one of her fans in my class! LOL

My cutie school counselor, teacher Lee Mei Ay! The one people would pretend to have issues to just meet her :)

My English/form teacher, Teacher Diana George!

after the voting session, it was time to hit the dance floor :) we started the dancing session by dancing "poco poco" then chacha followed by sumazau and at last some sort of freestyle and battle in a circle :)

Ria leading poco poco :)

on the stage: Me, Elaine, Mei Ay, Yeoh and Ricky.

Ria and I demonstrating Chacha. Watch and learn. LOL

Chacha with partners :)

Ricky + I =AWKWARD!! XD

Us, demonstrating Sumazau..behind me is Faiez. here, something horrible happened. HAHA.. i laughed looking at Faiez's face and he couldn't stand it too..soo..see the following pic..

SHY!! haha..he walk to the side for being too shy. LOL!!

Others, doing Sumazau :)

The fun part..pput your hand in the air people :)

Nonie and Vahin on the dance floor.. :)

After dancing, took come group photos.. for more photos, click here

Undeniable enjoyable! enough already.. time to go to sleep..


P/S: thanks for being my friends :)

XOXO

The Climb

Can You Be My Lullaby?

26 days to SPM and I'm suffering insomnia. perfect, don't you think? i sleep at 4am everyday and wake up at 6am to prepare myself for school. (note: i don't revise until 4am) I'm usually on my bed by 12 but i can just lie down and think about lots of stuff. i tried not to think so much things but i just couldn't. every time i try, i tend to end up thinking even more. can't help it. eyes open, eyes close, doesn't make any differences at all. and i am actually super tired and sleepy when i go to bed. but things just keep on popping out on my mind. it's like everything are wrapped around it. I'm seriously struggling with things around me. you tell me what to do. i tried a lot of ways to overcome, but nothin' works at the moment.  i wonder how it would be if i continue to be like this until SPM. i can predict how I'll actually be while sitting for my exam papers. oh by the way, they said: "you know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams" well guess what, I HOPE!

S.O.S Please Someone Help Me

Just so you know, I'm taking 11subjects for SPM. Malay, English, History, Moral, Math, Additional maths, General Science, Biology, Physics, Chemistry and English for science and Technology. So far i suck the most in add maths and biology. still trying to improve though. i must say that I'm not as hardworking as i was back to those days during PMR, which i was able to get 6As and 1B. i started revising in July for PMR. as for now, i just started revising on the end of September. i was procrastinating A LOT! i know I'm weak on many subjects. i know i should double my effort towards my studies. but I didn't. well, at least now I've started revising already, I'm trying my best. so, let's just wait and see how it will be :)

I'm Sorry, I Cant Be Perfect

First of all, please, do not judge me. I'm sick of people who are trying to talk like they really, really know me. well you know what, you don't have the right to judge me. we are all just mere human beings. come on. i have feelings too okay. I fake lots of smiles, but you guys have no idea what's hiding there, deeeeep inside. just open your eyes. everyone does mistakes. i know i have lots of weaknesses or whatsoever you think it is, i know I'm quite sarcastic sometimes. i know I'm air-headed.. but hey, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I ain't perfect enough for you guys. i really wonder if there's a list about "things you hate about Yvette Ding Pei Fern", what will people actually write on it. i know it's gonna hurt. but i just wonder. oh well, don't wanna get too emo here. i should stop now.

P/S: Don't worry, I'll be alright..

The Dead Has Risen

Berdasarkan tajuk "The Dead Haas Risen", tajuk tu menfokuskan blog ni yang dah lama tak di-update, di-update pula semula :)

HELLO GUYS!
Just so you know, things are pretty fine here..
not everything, for sure...
Let's start with..

-SCHOOL-

My adrenaline kept on rushing up and down lately..just don't have any sense of safeness being at school..
thanks to the "gang mercun"..they've been putting firecrackers A LOT lately..
even during the exam..
i wonder why..probably kerana kurang kasih sayang these people -.-
Meriah bah ni SMK Agaseh..semangat menyambut Raya..
oh by the way, exam was good i guess. just ended today. waiting for result :)

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-FRIENDS-

Here's a question. Would friends leave you when you face difficulties?
or are those even considered as friends?
well, here it goes..
My friend, Lydia (not her real name) went to the library with me during last semester break and things were going pretty good, until.
We went out for lunch after revising and drop by a supermarket near the restaurant to buy some stuff, which was apparently located nearby her parent's shop. Her mum happen to see us walking around and asked me to follow her car home. Although she didn't really look friendly that time
but Lydia said it was okay, she'll be there for me whatever happens. So okay, cool.
I step in the car and her mum started talking to me with an extreme loud voice. normally, people would just walk out from the car or what. But i chose to stay and suffered her scoldings towards me, which make no sense at all. Lydia tried to defend but it was totally hopeless. Her mum asked her to shut up. Saying all my deeds were only white lies. suddenly, she sent Lydia home and ask me to stay in the car. She lied to me hat my parents were waiting me "there". I asked her where are they, but she couldn't answer me ad even tried to ignore. It was so obvious that she was lying to me, but still, i went off with her. Lydia stared at me hopelessly, lip-saying "sorry" i smiled, closed the door and guess what.
i felt like my life at that very moment was on danger cause her mum really looks like she was mentally ill, insane. at the very moment when i closed the door her mum yelled at me. You bloody hell Pei Fern! (that. i will never for get). haven't you not realized there's 2months more until my daughter's big exam. you bitch! try to imagine, people. what would you do IF you were in my shoes? jump out from the car? yell back? Me, i kept quiet. you can say I'm a total craven. but just so you know, I'm not. i seriously felt pity for her that she loves her daughter so much until she became THAT protective.

Let's have a look with the list of what she'd scolded me:
-bitchy, for asking her daughter out for the sake to go out looking for boys.
-rubbish family, unlike her's, the class, rich and famous.
-stupid, that teachers in St. Dominic complain about my studies and attitude.
-busy body, school complain that Lydia is on the phone with me everyday in the school hostel.
-disturbing, asking her daughter out to the library.
-STOP contacting her daughter, or else.
(not to mention all the foul words) during that 8km ride and other more harsh words that I've forgotten.

Let's have a look with the facts:
-going library, restaurant, supermarket, for boys?! or is it the male TEACHER who sent us to the restaurant from library?
-my family might not as rich, as famous, like yours, but we ain't rubbish.
-i may be quite slow in learning, i might talk a lot in class, but at least i have some achievements in for my school, my district, my state. oh by the way, i don't even study in St. Dominic @.@
-she usually calls me from her hostel approximately once a week. it was her boy friend that she wouldn't tell you.
-i didn't even ask your daughter out that day. she was the one who asked me to accompany her.
-i didn't contact Lydia, cause i knew she would find me. and she apologized. but i can sense that she'd no idea how harsh was her mum after she left.

continue......

i tried to explain to Lydia's mum but she wouldn't keep her mouth shut, the entire journey. i started crying when her words got even harsh. wanted to hold my tears cause i didn't wanna let my mum see me like that. but i couldn't. stupid tears -.-lll when i reached home i told aunt that Lydia will be successful one day, like what she was hoping and wishing this long. closed the door and ran towards my room, crying bitter tears (for no reason). Mum was shocked cause aunt open the car window and shouted : of course she will, not like you F**** B*** !@#$%^&* Mum, totally stunned walking towards the car and wanted to talk with her. But quickly, that creepy woman drove away.
my parents look for Lydia's mum and they kinda like quarreled. my parents and Lydia's used to be close friends.. not anymore. things change.

Question: do i hate Lydia's mum?
Answer: No.
Reason: life is too short to waste time hating someone.

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that's all for now, i guess..
Happy holidays!

An Honest Utter

Another poem of mine for the school magazine.
sounds kinda weird for people like me to write things like this.
hope you'll enjoy reading :)
it's called "An Honest Utter"
don't really have a proper ending actually.

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Who are we to compare with
when we are living in richness and fame
while others suffer so badly
thankful just to breathe one more day

Who are we to be enraged
saying "life ain't playing fair"
while opportunities were knocking on the door
but our noses were too too high up to ignore

Who are we to question
that life is never a fortune
while we sit and dream of glorification
unwilling to put words into action

Who are we to complain
to walk with just a few more steps
while others do not have the chance
trying so hard to move, but in vain

Who are we to grieve
with arms wide open easy to receive
while others, homeless, on the street
evicted from where they try to lean

Who are we to criticize
"oh, that person, what a sly!"
we are so good in these judging games
but the truth is,
off with the skin we look just the same.

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think there's other more suitable title to replace?
feel free to drop your suggestion :)
was thinking of something to do with the word "monologue" and "incomprehensible"

I Found Light

Agaseh's students..you'll see this in the pelita next year :)
thanks to those who helped in completing this.. you know you did :)

the night is long
with everything seems wrong
i ventured into darkness
just to discover a secret

i found light
that gave me hope, direction
like a lamp that guides
it saved me from my struggles

i found light
it overcame evil
it radiance so bright
even the darkness can never fight

i found light
it cast out doubts and lingering shadows
saving me from my fall

the road had never been clearer
till the very moment
i found light

never,
will i ever slip into darkness,
anymore.


HOPE YOU'll LIKE IT :)

EAK National Level

hey there.. bet you guys were wondering what happened in Perak..
here it goes...

8th June 2009
Our flight...from Lahad Datu (LD) to Kota Kinabalu (KK)..then from KK to Kuala Lumpur (KL)..
everything was fine, UNTIL....... we lost our box in the airport which contain some items for our competition.. (helmets, gloves, fibers, kernels, nuts, dry shells) these are for the additional marks for our presentation (15marks). we were looking everywhere.. teacher went to the KLIA's office while us walk around just to see if anyone TER-ambil our box..unfortunately, it was getting late and the bus was waiting for us to leave and go to Universiti Teknologi Petronas(UTP) in Perak..everyone was getting down and moody because of the box..started lossing our confidence towards the competition..we were like.. kalah la, kalah la, haiz..but at the same time tried to cheer others up while we ourselves couldn't stay calm..we even suspected the National Service's kakak-kakak and abang-abang (LOL) because they were in the same plane with us.. sorry guys..


Even made an annuoncement there..because some of them were holding boxes..but still, failed to find it..and since we were running out of time to leave, the staff there told us that they will llok for it and send it to UTP..okay, that night, we waited for their call..wait and wait and WAIT..couldn't wait anymore, teacher made the move to call them instead..but the box was still missing..sigh.. okay okay, maybe they will have it tomorrow...

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9th June 2009
Early morning, we wake up, and knock knock knock on the door "dock dock" (i just love that song so much) LOL...just kiding..okay back to the topic..they called, and again no new about the box..Navin lost all his confidence, keep saying we'r going to lose..others tried to convince him while at the same time actually also think that we will lose..lol...buduh punya budak..but then still hoping that the box will appear before our competition..coz our group is at 8am, wednesday morning (10/06/09).. At night, we went to see the 1st 6groups to present their presentation in this room..



..some were freakinly awesome, some were so FAKE when they talk about their experiance, some were just so so..started getting nervous when they were presenting, but still didn't care much, was thinking about the box all the time..after all of them finished prenting, it was around 11pm,i dont know about them, but i totally los hope for the box thing since it was already that late and our presentation starts at 8 in the morning..practice for awhile and went to bed at 3am..hahahahaha...we were 38ing the room actually...

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10th June 2009
Woke up at 6..We hoped so much that miracles might happen at that very moment..but still, we were just day dreaming..sticked to the plan, present lie how we usually do, just no need to present those materials and appararus..15 marks :( ..we could actually see that none of us are motivatd to present..we did spontaneously during the state level, also the same during the national level..we did we MUCH BETTER during the state level, don't know why, don't even wanna know more about it already..okay, finish presenting, didn't even wanna stay there to se how others present their career choice, so..JALAN...went back our room, and sleep..at night was the closing ceremony together held with dinner.. only those who got no1,2,3 and adults going to sit inside the hall with aircond..while the others sit outside with TV dispying what's happeing inside..once we reached, we hope so much that there'e a table for us inside..we knew Negeri9 and Sarawak is in the top3..but there's one left that nobody really knows who succeed..okay, waited for the answer.. ((teacher sms: Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur))...okay, let's just sit outside..bah...nothing to lose...get to know some friends from Putra Jaya and Sarawak..the PJ guys and us were sittin in that same table and both teams aren't happy with the competition.. (PJ could have won, their team was the only one that impressed us) but still, together we sat, and ate (macam tiada the food) and chat.. we were like.. okay, we are the LOSERS..turn the f*cking tv to football, we don't wanna see what's dispaying inside.. bring us some alcohol!! LOL!!! coz what we think is..they shouldn't seperate the contestant, that's so discriminating! but then, it was okay coz we had fun also out there..*gossiping alot* LOL..

We didn't really care much about the box thing already since the competition had ended, UNTIL... Teacher X told us that the box is inside a male teacher's room while we're on our way to our room!!! what the !@#$%^&*... we were speechless! blood pressure movin up and down.. so many days placed in his room he didn't even bother to open the box and check what's inside?!! !@#$%^&* started thinking there must be SOMETHING we don't know...that guy was the one who know one knows why he care so much that our box got missing..

okay, so we went to have a talk with the person who's responsibled for the whole trip, something like Sabah's head.. Sir, betulkah kotak kami tu TER-jumpa dah? ... ... ... (doesn't look like want to answer us, pretending that he's busy or what : tiada. tak receive call dari airport then walked away fast) that's bullshit...

the guy that has the box with him didn't even look at us after we knew that the box is with him..usually he always, i mean ALWAYS come near ur to greet us and to make sure everything's okay..but after that, HEH~ don't even dare to come near us..and we dont bother to ask him anymore since they are trying to keep this stupid secret..he told teacher X wat that the box is with him..too bad, the teacher betrayed him!!

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11th June 2009
in KLIA, going back to KK..while checkin in..the person that got the box with him PRETEND to ask the girl at the counter in front of us **ei, tak jumpa lagi kah kotak tu?**
BULLSHIT!!!!! sempat lagu scolded them but actually the boz is with him.. !@#$%^&* fake! so fake!! okay, fine fine since that's what he want, don't even want to think about it..anymore!

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Guess this's the 1st time of me being this rude in my blog..lol..true identity revealed.. (not afraid) never mind, forgive..and love them..



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